At 25/26, having not finished high-school, i somehow gained the position of the full-time web designer and internet applications programmer for a very large corporation. I had a wife, children, a beautiful family. I moonlighted privately as a web consultant and part-time white-hat hacker for both businesses and a couple government entities. Things were looking WAY up. Now, it's so far gone, it's truly much closer to being just a dream than having ever been a reality. Right now, just as with the past few years, I'm sick... VERY sick, stuck depending upon my own parents for shelter and care. The family I helped to create and was so very proud of, has been destroyed. If I could make myself better magically, i SO would. I wish everything was better... so much better. But I'd be lying if I said I was sure it really will, ever again. And knowing this.. just doesn't help. (Please forgive my rant... just needed to vent i suppose.) :-)